| Life isn't fair, there are no happy endings, etc. etc. on and on |
[Nov. 4th, 2007|05:41 pm] |
So... today I helped my dad's friend move some of his parents' furniture out of the old house. They died earlier this year. Within three months of each other. When his mum died... his dad just didn't have the desire to live anymore. And he just kind of faded out of reality and his health went downhill rapidly. It's sort of like that old expression... at least I think it's that old expression... that men don't survive their women. Random, yeah. But for some reason that really sticks out for me. But... jeez.... the guy is so broken up about it. It's really heartbreaking. He said that last night he watched the Navy vs. Notre Dame football game with his fathers ashes like he used to when his dad was alive. He kept going around the house picking things up. Everything had a story behind it. Some fond memory that caused him heart wrenching anguish. His parents were really the only people he had in his life... He was married for a time, but his wife cheated on him and they divorced. He lost the only people that he loved. It's clear even to me that he feels completely alone. Heartbreaking. Sometimes the world is unbearably depressing.
My thirteen year old cousin is having open heart surgery done on Wednesday. He's having a valve replaced... it's going to greatly reduce danger of sudden heart failure. Whiiiiich is good. He has marfans syndrome and he's a really terrific kid. I love him so much and I'm terrified about this whole operation. I hope my luck doesn't with recent things doesn't get mixed up in his operation.
When everything is completely fucked and you know its your fault... that is unpleasant. Stupid fucking pills won't work and the only good thing I had... I screwed up. Fucking great!
Life sucks. |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2007|11:17 pm] |
So I guess I should stop fucking around. Making light of the situation does not help.
Now I guess I just try to stay on top of my temper. |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2007|08:09 pm] |
In my haste it seems that I went about this with all the grace of a sledge hammer wielding palsy victim performing brain surgery.
And look where it has gotten me.
OOPSIE! |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2007|10:09 pm] |
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| [ | music |
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You know, it's remarkable how quickly things are rendered obsolete nowadays. Well... not obsolete, I guess. But something better, more efficient or more powerful comes out like every week.
I bought an iPod today! Joy! Dealt without one for a while now (2 months?) and it's been kind of a pain. Love that little metal rectangle. But yeah. Bought an iPod today. 80 GB "classic" for the same price I bought my 30 GB video iPods. Crazy, eh? 50 more GBs! For no extra cost or whatever!
If you wait long enough the market and competition will wear just about anything down.
Today was so booooooring.
but yay.
iPod.
Heeeeeee.
Going to the movies tomorrow! Seeing Control. Haven't heard anything about it, but I have high hopes.
... mainly cos I'm hella bored and haven't done anything in ages.
Wooo.
Something is majorly fucked up with my shoulder. Throughout the day my vision would blur due to the intensity of the pain. Hooray for overdosing on advil and icyhot! |
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[Nov. 1st, 2007|09:01 pm] |
Bored.
Booooored.
BOOOOOOOORRRRRED.
Anyone want to do anything this weekend? It's the first time in a while that I have free time (and am not diseased) and I'd like to... you know.... do something. So if any of you want to hang out or go see a movie or something, kindly call me or leave a message or something. I would love to do something.
Watching Pirates of the Caribbean (borrowing it from Spot...). Keira Knightley is absolutely gorgeous. Random, right? But totally true (as you all know, shush).
Blah. Someone do something with me, please? I really need a distraction. Life is teh sucks, yo. |
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[Oct. 31st, 2007|05:23 pm] |
Friends > Lunch
It was nice seeing you guys. |
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[Oct. 29th, 2007|09:34 pm] |
I am pregnant with Athena!
JESUS.
One hell of a headache. |
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[Oct. 27th, 2007|02:57 pm] |
I AM SO PROUD!
And I am not even a member of the team! Or the sport!
NCS and STA taking first yet again... verry naice.
You guys wuz amazings today. Congratulations! |
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| Pop goes the... shooouldeeeer. I don't remember the beginning. Mulberry bushes or somesuch? |
[Oct. 25th, 2007|07:12 pm] |
| [ | currently feeling |
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| [ | music |
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Glargish.
Finally headed back to school today.
Getting out of the house was very, very nice.
Seeing how much I had missed and how much work I had waiting for me... not so nice.
Lucky for me I am not cleared to row yet! So I have plenty of time to study and work. Truth be told, I'm kinda glad I am not rowing right now. My body is a mess. I'm sore and exhausted and my right shoulder, right knee, and right hip are in a bad place right now. That bad place would be about two inches away from their appropriate sockets and whatnot. A major pain they are. ... that and the fact that I haven't worked out in a week. Eeeuugghh.
.... also I don't think I'll be rowing for the rest of the season (EHEHEHEEEE).
Loads of people asked me how I was doing today and if I had really had Staph. I guess word gets around? It's really been built up by the media too much. Not pleasant by any means, but certainly not some super death strain.
YAAAWN.
Best of luck to all those running this weekend! Kick some bootay. Weather should be interesting, though. By which I mean muddy. Yeah. |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2007|10:40 am] |
Why is it the one time I am optimistic about something... it actually DOES turn out to be the worst case scenario.
BAH! Ball sack. SCROTUM! Heeeeee. |
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[Oct. 18th, 2007|07:06 pm] |
Something I found out today.... there is no way to have your buttocks poked prodded and stabbed in a dignified manner.
Dignity? Bam. Defenestrated.
.... most embarrassing (hee) illness ever.
And my mother needs to learn to exaggerate less. Or stop overreacting. Or something of that nature. Cos relatives keep calling thinking that I am dying. |
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[Oct. 15th, 2007|09:06 pm] |
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What the hell is wrong with my shoulder. I cannot rotate it properly. Crap.
Helped Cody move Saturday... 6 hours of hauling and junk. Really happy for the Brockways. The new house is about 5 times the size of their old one and they're really happy about it. They deserve it. Glad I went. Cody has adorable puppies.
Sunday was the Head of the Occoquan. 6 hours of races and junk. Our boat got 5th out of 12. Not good, but that means we are the best Varsity B boat in the area. We beat Gonzaga's first 8, too. Coach says he is happy with my constant improvement. So that is good I guess. Maybe I'll ask him for some advice about the shoulder. Probably not. Got off the water around 4:20 and de-rigged the boats and brought them back up to the trailer. I was trying to get out of there as soon as possible and was kinda rude to the coach... apologized today but I still feel bad about it. Got a ride from the Keatings and we dropped off Ed and then they dropped me at home. Rest of the day wasn't so great. |
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[Sep. 30th, 2007|06:59 pm] |
I just wrote a letter to my dead grandfather.
Weird, eh?
His burial is tomorrow.
That's roughly 6 months after his death.
Had our first Head Race today. It's a 5 Km race (XC equivalent of crew) and it was hella tiring. Took us 15 minutes and 10 seconds and our stroke rate was a 30 for the entire time (excluding the sprint which was at a 36). Oofah. Tiiiirrrreeeed. We got third behind the two First boats and passed the two boats ahead of us. Pretty decent race overall. As usual I wasn't to impressed with my performance. My back is killing me. Kat. Give me a massage.
Tomorrow is school. Harrumph.
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[Sep. 29th, 2007|09:57 am] |
Went to the game last night. It was pretty neat seeing so many people out there cheering for the team. I'm not much of a football fan but it was pretty cool. Left at half time because I was feeling absolutely wretched and knew I still had to drive home.
Driving down to practice today was a pain in the butt because a Tri-athlon was going on down on the pier. So most of the major roads were closed off and finding a parking spot was a bit of a pain. Practice was coooooold. And there was one hell of a head wind so my back aches (along with the headache and sick feelings...). We have a head race tomorrow! Yay/Shit! It's actually the same distance as a cross country race. Aka it's going to suck. Rowers are cooler than runners! We row 7 days a week and are teh awesomes.
Still feel pretty lousy.... I should eat something... |
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[Sep. 25th, 2007|05:08 pm] |
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Dose got upgrated. Hopefully this'll do something. |
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[Sep. 24th, 2007|08:11 pm] |
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| | When the Man Comes Around- Johnny Cash | ] |
Finally, and erg test that went well.
Finished towards the top but am still much, much slower than I was last WINTER.
Bah.
So I'm finally really on top of my academic/ athletic work. That's good, right?
So why am I still nervous and miserable?
I feel like doing something extremely stupid.
Hmm....
I adore Johnny Cash.
ANYWAY!
Saw Kim, Lee, Tiffany, and Lillian today. That was nice. Hadn't seen 'em in ages. Being busy and actually working sucks. Lots. A.L.T. was cool cos I only said one thing but the teacher kept going back to it and being all impressed. W00t.
Uhhh.... anyone wanna hang out this weekend? I might be helping Cody move Friday and I have a Regatta on Sunday. But otherwise I'd love to do something. Miss seeing y'all. |
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[Sep. 23rd, 2007|09:50 pm] |
So it's been.... three weeks?
I'm already losing my fucking mind.
What is wrooooong with meeeee?
*emo emo emo emo*
But really?
I fucking hate this.
I need a stronger goddamn dose.
EDIT:
Anyone remember that fella Sam Rosenbaum from Prom? He was Katie's date. He keeps IMing me and talking to me at the boathouse. And he asked if I wanted to hang out sometime.
... and that's kinda weird. Cos.... I don't really know him. At all.
That isn't really a problem... but I don't really like the guy all that much :P
I'm a horrible person.
SO WHAT.
Yeah. Yeeeeeahhh.
That's what I thought. |
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[Sep. 17th, 2007|09:03 pm] |
Brief this shall be!
Saw Across the Universe with Ali, Chris, and Laura on Saturday. It was pretty neat. Lots of pretty voices and great renditions of beatles songs. Cool movie.
Sunday went to the zoo with Kat. I am an inconsiderate asshole sometimes and need tro learn to control my temper.
Today was pretty good and I've been in a good mood for most of it (which is a rare occurrence) so that's pretty cool. See? Brief. |
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